Wait What?

Okay so I'd write about all the things I did wrong...let's focus on what I did right.  Dank a healthy smoothie for breakfast. Went and saw friends at a long term care facility, they are there due to a motorcycle accident.  Cleaned etc.  I am 700 calories over in my diet because I had chocolates for lunch and a bottle of wine.  I did however find a chart for something to organize every day.....im excited about that.  Seems easy enough but again taking on too many things at once.  Wanna do it and have it all .... NOW!!

So 2016 is upon us...as per usual I am writing again.  I wonder if other people start and re start as often as I do?  Is it that I am just not meant to stick to anything?  Well let's see what happens this time.....maybe just maybe I will excel this time.    Let's see...list of things I started, exercise, weight loss, eating clean, creating a better work environment for myself, putting away my laundry every week, keeping my room clean, organizing the office and making the room useful, sticking to a budget, not eating lunch out all the time, drinking more water, eating less carbs, not watching so much tv after work, taking the boy out driving more.....there are probably more I just can't think of them all.  I think that I may be failing because oh I dunno I don't pick one thing to concentrate on.  Maybe I should pick one thing a week.....but that brings me to the question of which thing should I start with?    Do I start with what is going to g...

I like to have a glass of wine...but then i want a snack...it's a ridiculous cycle and since the alcohol is already filled with crap calories it's really not okay to eat dorito's with it....but of course i'm not going to eat a salad with it... The 4th was fun...beerita's, neighbors and fireworks!!  Always a fun time. Of course I'm sure i gained a few pounds over the weekend as well, it's amazing to me that from Friday to Monday I can gain 2lbs but I'll be damned if I can lose that same 2lbs in 5 days....well okay wait i could lose the 5lbs in 5 days but it takes a whole lot more effort than it does to gain it.   Sigh... Worked out a few days of the 4 day weekend which was good, felt good as well.  Making a good effort today to eat clean...easily done on a day like today for some reason.   Back to the basics, I swear if I would just pay attention i could do this losing weight thing easier.  But i don't, i have a drink then i go completely off th...

I really don't..I want to have fun and turn heads.  I want to be free to breathe and not suck in my stomach.  I feel best when I work out...and eat clean....so it should be easy right???  All of these wants..you'd think that I could just do what I need to do.   Well I am going to... This has been going on for as long as I can remember and it has to stop...now!!!

Okay always seems like others are moving in a forward motion and I'm stagnant.  Today I worked out when I got home!!! I feel that RJ needs to see me doing it not just saying I'm doing it!  Hopefully he will join me tomorrow!!!   Feels good!! Feels forward.  Food today was ok...fell victim to a piece of cake but everything else was real food!!!

Lots done today...my beauty regimens is complete.  About to start my meals for the week....I feel good, ate ok today, got rid of the Cheetos so they are finally gone.   Sorbet chilling, made the boys birthday cake ice cream.  Having pulled pork for dinner.   I still feel like a recluse I want to go out and do things but don't...then I feel bad because I don't.   It's an awful cycle....  I'm not giving up....going to keep moving forward its just a very slow process.

Got lots done today...and had energy which is great.  Going to take my greens twice a day and see if it keeps helping!!  Cooked lots of things for week and will start my daily burn workouts with RJ tomorrow morning!!